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My life is crazy right now. Too much is happening.. then not enough.
It's crazy.
I had my life down to a T a year ago. But.. when I went to my father's house the last time.. everything went wrong. Horribly wrong. I became stressed out. Scared. I can't sleep right. I get random depression. I want to cry at weird intervals. Like today.. in the middle of 5th period.. I was cutting out squares. Then all of a sudden BAM I got hit with the feeling of wanting to cry.
I think I'm not going to live til tomorrow. It's a horrible thought to have right before you fall asleep.. and then it keeps you're up for another 3 hours.
I'm tired of not knowing myself anymore. Tired of being unsure. Tired of not being in control, and having fits of emotion that I don't know how to handle.
I apologize to those of you whom I have ignored of the past couple weeks. I'm trying to get my life back. I want to know what I did before that kept my anxiety at bay, without me thinking I was going to sleep and might not be waking up in the morning.
I bite my nails constantly. My poor fingers and the skin surrounding my nails have gone through so much abuse.
I'm working on Astronomy Homework right now. And then I have to read Scene 3 Act 1 of Othello and summerize it before 4th period tomorrow.
Which adds to the stress of my household. My Homework. My chores (which isn't that stressful.. but it is when you dont to it to mom's expectations when she comes home), My mother, and sometimes my sisters.
I'm still fighting over my image. Still thinking I'm fat and unpretty. Plain is more like it. There is nothing extraordinary about me. I don't possess any special talents. I suck at videos games. I'm only outgoing around friends. I'm boring. Sometimes I feel stupid next to peers. Like Chris, or Brian. And Becks and Grim. I feel inferior to them and sometimes don't know what they're talking about.
I'm an outcast sometimes.
I'm also an attention whore. I realized this. I get jealous when I don't get some form of attention. Even mad. I try not to let it show, especially now, since I have recently discovered this. I give credit to those of you who have taken care of me and gone out of your way for me. Those mentioned above. You've put up with so much of my shit over the years. And I owe everything to you.
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[12 Aug 2006|09:40am] |
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LAYER ONE:
Spell your name with bands/artists:
Jet
Elvis Presley
System of a Down
Savage Garden
Incubus
Coheed and Cambria
A Perfect Circle
LAYER TWO:
-- Name: Jessica
-- Birth Date: December 29th
-- Nickname: Jess, Jessie, Jessie-Bear
-- Current Location: Jacksonville, Florida
- Eye Color: blue/green
-- Hair Color: Light brown
-- Righty or Lefty: Righty
-- Zodiac Sign: Capricorn
LAYER THREE:
-- The shoes you wore today: Haven't left the house. xD
-- Your weaknessess: I don't know anymore. Cute things? xD
-- Your fears: being alone...and spiders
-- Your perfect pizza: Very very cheesy.
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: Losing some poundage. x3
LAYER FOUR:
--Your best physical feature: My eyes.
-- Your bedtime: WHEN I FEEL LIKE IT HOE! xD
-- Your most missed memory: My Sweet 16 xD
LAYER FIVE:
-- Pepsi or Coke: Coke
-- McDonald's or Burger King: Micky D's
-- Adidas or Nike: Vans... shyyyaaat nigga!
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Nestea
-- Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate.. but I lubba dat Birthday cakers.
-- Cappuccino or coffee: Coffee.. from Starbucks.
LAYER SIX:
-- Smoke: Nein!
-- Curse: Hell fucking no.
-- Sing: But of course!
-- Take a shower everyday: Of course!
-- Do you think you've been in love: Yuppers. If I wasn't, where would I be now?
-- Want to get married: *nodnodnod* YES!
-- Get motion sickness: Yupp.
-- Think you're attractive: Eh.. kinda. Not really.
-- Think you're a health freak: Oh jesus, no.
-- Get along with your parents: Eh... sometimes.
-- Play an instrument: Used to play Clarinet.
LAYER SEVEN:
In the past month have you?
-- Drank alcohol: Nein!
-- Smoked: Nein!
-- Gone to the mall: Unfortunately.
-- Kissed someone: Mhmm.
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: Ha! I wish. Then I would get sick. And that's no good.
-- Eaten Sushi: Can't. Allergic.
-- Been on stage: Nope.
-- Gone skating: Uhh, no.
-- Made homemade cookies: No, but made cinnamon rolls. xD Does that count.
-- Gone Skinny dipping: O.O;;; No. Definitely not.
-- Stolen anything: Of course not!
LAYER EIGHT:
Have you ever?
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing: Uhhh, nope.
-- If so, was it mixed company: Can't be mixed company if I never did do it... hoe!
-- Been called a tease: A couple times.
-- Been beaten up: Uhhh.. no. Usually I'm the one doing the beating. xD
LAYER NINE:
-- Age you hope to be married: At least before I'm 30.
-- Numbers of Children: At least 2. A boy and a girl.
-- Describe your Dream Wedding: White dress. White roses. Church. All friends and family. Go to the beach later.. during sun set. And the dance my ass off at the reception afterwards.
-- What country would you most like to visit?: France?
LAYER TEN:
What do you prefer in the opposite/same sex?
-- Best eye color: Green. xD
-- Best hair color: I've always liked dark haired men. But.. I think I might have a slight soft spot for dirty brown.
-- Short hair or long hair: Depends on the guy.
-- Height: Taller than me.
-- Best weight: Not skinny as a rail.
-- Best articles of clothing: Shorts
LAYER ELEVEN:
-- Number of people I could trust with my life: Not sure anymore.
-- Number of CDs that I own: Oh Jesus. No idea anymore. Plus I download alot of Limewire now.
-- Number of tattoos: None.
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[05 Aug 2006|02:54pm] |
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What were you doing...
1 minute ago: Talking on the phone with Brian
1 hour ago: Talking on yahoo and then visiting my Uncle.
1 day ago: Cleaning so that Uncle Ted won't be like "ZOMG YOUR HOUSE ISH DIIIRRRTTYYY11!!!1!!ONE111!!!"
1 year ago: Settling into mah new house.
I hate: Being scared
I fear: Dying and being alone
I feel: Sickly. And tired as hell.
I hide: Nothing from some and Everything from most.
I drive: A 2005 Dodge Ram (Soon to be something else)
I love to: Be with loved ones and having a good time.
I learned: School staff are stupid at Forrest High.
I think: Optimistically. It's hot in my house. Chris shouldn't be at the beach. Brian shouldn't be working. Michael shouldn't be at Job Core.
First...
First screen name: Jessszyman
First piercing: Ears
First enemy: Some girl named Britney in elementary
First concert: Planet Fest 6
Lasts.
Last car ride: To the Olive Garden with Uncle Ted. And then in the truck with mom to pick up Amanda.
Last kiss: Chris
Last movie seen: The Grudge. In the theaters it was 'Pirates of the Carribean 2'
Last food consumed: I just made some French Fries xD
Last phone call: Brian called me. He schwas sad.
Last CD played: One of my mixes last night in the car ride to get Amanda.
Last drink you had: Water
Last time scolded: Kinda scolded yesterday afternoon because Mom wanted the house immaculate before Uncle Ted got here. And her grass trimmed. >.>
Short Answer...
I am: Bored
I want: My friends here
I need: A schedule change
I have: Awesome friends
I wish: Everyone could be at my house right now.
I love: Chris. Brian. Michael. Becca. My puppy. My family.
I wonder: How my future is going to turn out.
I always: Look on the bright side
I dance: Crazy. With or without an audience.
I cry: Rarely. More often now that ever. I'm just.. so.. damn.. emotional. Fuck. -.-;
I am not always: Friendly.
I write: On my hand
I win: Your face. xD
I confuse: Some.
Favorites...
Number: 27
Color(s): green, black, purple
Day(s): friday, saturday
Month(s): November and December
song(s): xD Waaay too many.
In the last 2 days, have you...
Cried?: Uhhh, no.
Helped someone?: Yes, I helped Brian
Gotten sick?: Currently am.
Gone to the movies?: Going tonight.
Said 'I love you'?: Yupperz.
Had drama?: Not really, thank god.
Written in a diary?: Don't do diaries.
Had a serious talk?: Yup.
Hugged someone?: o.O;; Yush.
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[31 Jul 2006|12:18pm] |
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**sigh** Ok, so maybe things weren't as good as they were.
What was something with me being fucking stupid.. just turned around and.. has made me on the verge of tears.
Maybe I should stop expecting so much in others. Gary even said that when we were in middle school.. I was an *attention whore*. (my words, not his). If him and I were talking, and then William came up and started talking to him, apparently I would walk away. And when he started talking to me, I would be all "Bout time"... but not actually say it.
I know I do the same thing when I'm in a big group.. I want to have one person to still be with me. I want to feel at least important to someone. Sometimes I walk away just to see if anyone notices. Because I feel like eveyone who's standing 2 feet away from me forgot about me.
Sometimes I feel like people aren't accepting me. Or don't want me around. And it's horrible in a big group of people. Everyone buddies up, and most of the time I'm left on my lonesome.
So.. apparently I whore pictures too. I want to know EXACTLY what your opinion of it is and why. >.<
And I'm sorry for anyone who notices I do any of this shit.. and who's bad side I've gotten on for being a complete asshole about my pictures.
And on top of all this shit.. My sister is being a fucking hoebag. She was trying to steal her friends boyfriend because he become interested in Rachel more then Alex. Because apparently Steven and Rachel have more in common. And I'm fucking tired of Rachel being "bold", in the words of my mother. I'm tired of her taking my friends. Like Brian. Or Michael. I like my friends who get annoyed by Rachel. She is constantly making room for herself where she doesn't belong. And now she is fucking starting school with me. Unless Lee High School calls and she decides to go there.
-.-;
I'm irritated.
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[30 Jul 2006|11:17pm] |
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Oh my Gawd!!
I just had one of the best days evar!!! I feel awesome. Like I'm on my own little high. The world is awesome right now.
And I got a bear!!! *luffs it*
School is coming soon..
My schedule is as follows:
1st: Astronomy (gonna be awesome)
2nd: Eng 4 (going to be changed)
3rd: French 2
4th: Eng 3 Hnrs
5th: Economics (1st semester)/Child Development (2nd semester)
6th: Computer Programming
7th: Physics Hnrs
Yay!! Child Development.. I get to carry around a fake baby!! xD
Hahahah!!
"Save Water, Shower with me"
"Yes ma'am!"
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[30 Jul 2006|10:23pm] |
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Sex = Good
1} 94% of men lie about their dick size.
According to condom manufacturers, only 6% of
men need to use extra large condoms.
2) The average man is 4-5 inches long when erect; no matter what you have heard ladies, that's the
truth. Incidentally the average vaginal capactity is
only 6 inches, for you women who think you can handle
king dong.
3) 80% of American men are circumsized, though Pediatrics say it is not necessary.
4) No matter what all the ads say nothing but time can
make your penis grow. (most men reach
the end of their growth by the early 20's)
5) There is no correlation between penis size and
shoe size, hand size, or nose size.
6) Blue balls does exist! It's technically
called "prostatic congestion."
7) Only 16% of men shave their privates.
+Some stuff on the ladies+
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1) Only 9% of women around the globe consider
themselves "attractive" (20% of British women
do). 43% of women use the term "natural", 24% say
they have "average" looks, 8% prefer the
term "feminine", 7% say they are "good looking",
and 7% say they are "cute", and finally only 2% of
women say they are "sexy".
2) An estimated 85% of women wear the wrong
size bra.
3) 60% of women have had breast implants.
4) 75% of women like giving/getting oral sex.
5) 95% of women shave their privates.
+Both+
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1) Masturbation is healthy for both men and
women.
2) 70% of highschoolers have had sex before
they have graduated. 27% loose their virginity senior
prom night. Only 3% wait until marriage.
3) 95% of men would have sex with a girl after 1
month of dating. Only 10% of women feel this way.
+5 Reasons Why Sex is Good+
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1) It is a good workout. Sex burns about 150
calories every half an hour. It will lower your
cholesterol and improve breathing circulation.
2) You won't get sick. According to research if
you have sex 1-2 times a week you are less likely to
get sick.
3) You'll feel happier. You will feel a greater sense
of well-being. Women who have more sex were
clinically proven to be less depressed than women
who dont have sex.
4) Makes you look better; problem is that ugly people
don`t get any. Sex releases hormones which make your skin and hair softer and shinier and tone your physique.
5) (The best reason) You will live longer. Studies
prove that sex makes you live longer. Men who
had sex 1-2 times a week had half the death rate
as those who did not indulge themselves at least
once a month. It also makes you look younger. If
you have sex 3 times a week you may look up to
10 years younger than you really are.
Did You Know?
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1) Having sex 3 times a week for 1 year adds up
to running 75 miles!!!!
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I just got done watching Ringu. The Japanese version of The Ring.
It was ok. Not as scary as the american version.
HURRAY!
I need sleep. Lots and lots of sleep.
I have a head cold.
I want my hair cut again. And dyed. =D
Because I'm awesome.
I bought The Pest today at Movie Stop.
I need to get my schedule changed again. >.<;
ok, love you
bye
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| My Autobiography |
[28 Jul 2006|03:10am] |
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1.What time do you normally get up?
o.O; In the summer? 10 or so. Depending on my night before
2.What exactly are you wearing right now?
Sweatpants and a tank top
3.What is your current problem?
I have a damn headache >.<
4.What makes you most happy?
Friends, Music, Fuzzy things, Disney, Winnie the Pooh, and mah puppies
5.What's the name of the song that you're listening to:
Walk This way - Aerosmith
6. Any celeb you would marry?
Celeb? Johnny Depp, but so would 98% of the female population
7.Name someone with the same birthday as you?
Only one other person that I've ever met.. my friend Matt's Dad.
8.Ever sang in front of a large audience?
Yes, at my Annie Jr play
9. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
Brooke Shields
10.Do you still watch kiddy movies or kiddie TV shows?
Frick yes!!! I LOVE Foster's home for Imaginary Friends and SpongeBob, amoung others
11.Do you speak any other languages?
Currently learning French
12. Has anyone you've been really close with passed away?
Freckles mah bunneh. But he isn't a "person"
13. Do you ever watch MTV?
I did before they took all of the music videos off.
14.What's something that really annoys you?
My sister being a whore
Chapter 1:
1.Middle name:
Kathleen
2.Nickname(s):
Jess, Jessie, Jica, and Jessie Bear
3.Current location:
Mah room!
4.Eye color:
They change.. but blue, green, yellow, and grey
Chapter 2:
1.Do you live with your parents:
Yuppers
2.Do you get along with your parent(s)?
Yea
3.Are your parents married/separated/divorced:
Divored
4.Do you have any Siblings?
yup, Amanda and Rachel
Chapter 3:
1. Ice Cream:
Chocolate
2. Season:
Winter, Fall
3.Shampoo/cond:
Yup. I love em both. Conditioner is amazing. It stops my hair from fully frizzing.
Chapter 4: Do You..
1.Dance in the shower:
Sometimes
2.Write on your hand:
All The Time!! Anyone who knows me knows that. xD
3.Call people back:
Depends On Who It Is Sometimes
4.Believe in a thing called love:
Of course
5.Sleep on a certain side of the bed:
Closer to the wall
6. any bad habits:
Cracking my knuckles and biting my nails
Chapter 5: Have You...
1.Broken a bone:
Multiple
2.Sprained stuff:
Couple times
3.Had physical therapy:
No
4.Gotten stitches:
Newp.
5.Taken painkillers:
Besides Tylenol? Midol. xD
6.Gone SCUBA diving or snorkeling:
No, don't like the ocean
7.Been stung by a bee:
Yeah
8.Thrown up at the dentist:
Newp.
9.Sworn in front of your parents:
Yea
10.Had detention:
Once.. for 3 tardies
11.Been sent to the principal's office:
Nope
12.Been called a hoe:
Yeah but jokingly.. my sisters and I do it to each other all the time.
Chapter 6: Who/What was the last
1.Movie(s) you saw:
Kung Pow and Somethings Gotta Give.. last one I saw in the theaters was Pirates 2
2.Person to talk to you?:
Amanda
3.Person to call you?
Mom
4.Person who hugged you?:
Brian
5.Person you tackled?
o.O;; Chris.
6.Thing you touched:
Teh mousey!
7.Thing you ate:
Chocolate Fudge Brownie
8.Thing you drank:
Ginger Ale
9.Thing you said:
"Don't take a picture of me, I look like hell"
10.Friends you miss the most that have moved:
Nick.. my best friend from like Second grade
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Aloha world.
Bored. XD What else could be new? Lol
I'm heading home tomorrow.
Spent the weekend at Becca's (whoo!) and then this beginning part of the week at Grandma's.
Have a school thing tomorrow at 1. And need to get my schedule changed. Because it's gonna suck. And I need a locker and my ID XD.
Sitting here on AIM talking to Grim and Gary. Still boys. XD
Can't wait to go home and sleep in mah bed. *misses it* With my million and one pillows.
I'm sitting here, waiting for Chris to come online. Which I don't think he is XD. Since he went to Niagra falls today. Bastard. *shakes fist* XDXD Jk
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[24 Jul 2006|02:29pm] |
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Still at Becks. She went to LPA and then IRCC. So,still wondering what I am going to do with mahself. And then I came across this beloved survey on my friends page. So, here we are. It's been LJ cut because of the whores who complain if it's long it should be cut.
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| A rant.. |
[23 Jul 2006|11:29pm] |
Hello world!!
It is me!! Jessica!!
I know you've all missed my LJ adventures.
Im sitting on a couch at Becca's house. Watching Scary Movie 2. XD
I was sitting here, minding my own business, listening to Launch.yahoo.com and one of Hilary Duff's new songs 'Beat of my Heart' came on. I stopped for a second and watched it. My mother had mentioned to me that she sang for before the fireworks on New Years and had lost alot of weight. She's gone psychotically thin.
Why?
Society keeps stressing that women need to be thin. This has gotten to everyone. Making them want to be pretty like the celebrities. Even some of the skinniest celebs thought they needed to be skinner. When they were fine the way they were. Lindsay Lohan, Mary-Kate Olsen, Jessica Simpson, and Hilary Duff just to name a few. They had NO NEED to get thinner. And then there are tons and tons of people saying that they are too fat. And then they're too thin.
Society needs to make its mind up. You hear you need to be healthy. But people who aren't rail thin are healthy AND pretty. But then if you lose weight there is something wrong with you.
Weight loss has been a touchy subject for multiple years. Women and young girls alike are pressured to be thin to be pretty. And if you have weight on you, you aren't worth dating. Which makes people depressed. It's gotten to the point where even men are having a hard time with having some weight on their bones. If you ask me, I prefer a guy who has meat on him, and isn't skin and bones. I can specifically recall having an arguement with one of my guy friends the other day about how he thought he was fat. The kid is about 5'10" and weighs 135 lbs. Fat is no where near a definition for him. >.> He knows who he is...
There once was a time when "pleasantly plump" were considered attractive. And that if you didn't have some weight on you, or were rosey cheecked, you were unattractive.
Where did this ever change?!
How could being thin be so serious and desired in a time where more than half of America is suffering from Obesity? And then everyone is so lazy, they don't want to HAVE to work to lose the weight. They want it to come off easily, whatever the cost. Liposuction, pills, fasting. You name it, they do it. No one takes the time to walk/use their bikes.
ON TOP OF THAT... fat women are NO longer in. And have such issues with getting a boyfriend or a man to even look at them because they have "more chins than a hong kong phone book."
All sized women and men are attractive just the way they are. And the only reason why you should change is for health reason. Diabetes, arthritis, cancer, etc.
Remember: You are beautiful whatever you may look like. Don't change for anyone else but yourself.
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[14 Jul 2006|11:56pm] |
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Today is Rachel's birthday. We had a pretty good day. Up until I got home..
When I got home, I found out Freckles died. My bunny rabbit died. I've been crying for so long and so hard. My eyes hurt right now and I don't know if I have anymore tears left to cry with.
I have barely left my room. Only time I did was when I came out to eat cake and sing Happy Birthday to Rachel and got my ass kicked by her in Super Smash Brothers for the n64.
I don't know what else to say.
Becks, I almost called you. But I didn't know if you'd be able to handle me. I was in hysterics and hyperventilating.
I'll definitely call you and Joe when I get a chance.
And P.S.
I'm still planning on coming down. THANK GOD. I need it. Like next Sat or something. Make sure it's ok with your mom. =D
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I know I don't update nearly as much as I should.
But I tell you people... I do read your LJ posts. Everyday actually. I just don't.. always.. reply to them or anything. I couldn't tell you why.
Well, why else would someone go on hiatus from LJ and then randomly come back?! Because she's depressed!! Da da daaa!!! Surprise surprise. -.-;
Things have been going pretty well for me. School's out. Thank God. 2 1/2 months of freedom. (Except from my family, which I will get approx 2 weeks away from mom but with sisters when I visited mine father's house!)
But.. Rachel had a graduation party today... and a bunch of her friends and a couple of my friends came over to hang out. (Mine came over as a saving grace from Rachel and her soon-to-be-freshman friends) Amanda, later on, went with her boyfriend, and I'm sure a couple of friends, to go out and do something. Not sure what.
We all hung out and watched my new bought movie, Kung Pow (for those of you who haven't seen it and are easily amused, I recommend this for you; aka Becca)
After Mike and Chris and I went back in the woods behind my house and burned dry leaves and the such. We made 4 fires. It was awesome. Rachel and her friends played with water balloons, water guns, and then went to the park.. AND THEN played soccer at the park. XD
When the party started dying, and people started going home, Michael invited Chris and I back to his house to hang. I ended up not going due to a ride back, and Chris couldn't go because his parents didn't want to be semi responsible for the kids Michael was stuck babysitting.
So Chris and I hung out and watched CSI. (I had also just bought the $73.99 5th season of CSI for $14.99.. I was SOOO psyched. There is absolutely nothing wrong with them. Not even ONE scratch. ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥) And then he left at 8. Rachel's friend Kelsey is sleeping over. And Amanda wasn't there anymore. So I decided to harrass mother to bring me to Michael's anyways since she had to go out and get a prescription at Walgreens.
Well, I got to drive to Michael's. I got there around 9 or so. We hung around. Burned things. I met his friend Melody. She was awesome, too. All 3 of us sat and roasted marshmellows. Fun fun. Well, I get a call around 10:20 or so.. and it's mom telling me she is on her way to pick me up. And I have to make a decision whether or not I wanna get picked up, or sleep over Mike's. Well, I have we have a birthday to go to early tomorrow. And I needed to be home to get up early. Because his guardians aren't too reliable. So she picked me up.
Some where between Chris' departure and being at Mike's.. I realized I was depressed. Not a fucking clue why.. And now, here I am.. back in my room.. writing on my LiveJournal. -.-; *sigh*
AND on top of that.. I'm sick to my stomach. Go me. I'm really at it.
So... I don't feel like sleeping. And eating my depression and life is out of the question. XD
So, here I am..
Ah, fuck. That's right. I DO have that damn party tomorrow. And I don't wanna sleep. That always sucks ass. *sigh* Alas, I do not know what I'm going to do. I'm expecting Micahel to call back eventually. Him and Melody are hanging out. Without me. Blah. Assholes. XD Naw, I love them. Michael is cool. Probably the closest thing I've ever had to a brother. We actually abuse each other. XDXD Anyways. Maybe I'm a little depressed because he's going to Job Core in Gainesville. (long story. But long story short, one of my best friends is leaving me because his aunt and uncle think he's a worhtless piece of shit.)(LOOOONG story short, his mother is dead and father is in jail.. so his aunt and uncle are his guardians.. and the kids he was babysitting that I mentioned earlier were his 2 cousins, Autumn and Chance.) That's gonna blow. I'm gonna miss him.
Well, I think maybe I blabbed enough. >.<;; Who's gonna actually read my mile long entry, I don't know. Good luck. Have fun.
I feel old.. -.-;
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For those of you who didn't know....
1. I'm nothing special... in fact, I'm a bit of a bore... If I tell a joke, you've probably heard it before
Thank you for the music - Abba
2. Here in my car, I feel safest of all, I can lock all my doors, it's the only way to live in cars
Cars - Gary Neuman
3. Collipark Bubba Sparxxx BOOTY BOOTY BOOTY BOOTY rocking everywhere
Ms New Booty - Bubba Sparxx
4. I'm becoming less defined as days go by, fading away, and well you might say I'm losing the focus
Only - Nine Inch Nails
5. Korekara minnade mechakucha odotte sawagou sawagou... Headbanga, Hit me, hit me
Get your freak on - Missy Elliot
6. I have but one heart, this heart I bring you, I have but one heart, to share with you
I have but one heart - Nino Rota
7. Dear I fear we're facing a problem, you love me no longer I know and maybe there is nothing that I can do to make you do
Love Fool - The Cardigans
8. To the beat of my, to the beat of my, to the beat of my heart
Beat of my Heart - Hilary Duff
9. *sigh* We both lie silently still in the dead of the night, although we both lie close together we feel miles apart inside
Every Rose has its thorns - Poison
10. I won't suffer, be broken, get tired, or wasted surrender to nothing, I'll give up what I started
Attack - 30 seconds to mars
11. I pretend that I'm glad you went away, these 4 walls closin' more everyday, and I'm dying inside, and nobody knows it but me
Nobody knows it but me - Babyface
12. I can feel it coming in the air tonight, oh lord, and I've been waiting for this moment for all of my life, oh lord
In the Air tonight - Nonpoint
13. On the good ship lollipop, it's a sweet trip to the candy shop, where bon bons play on the sunny beach of peppermint bay
The Good Ship Lollipop - Tiny Tim
14. I like beer cause it is good, I drink beer because I should, if there was a song to sing, I sing it and beer you bring
The Beer Song - Psychostick
15. He who gets slapped and he who gets saved, he who brutalizes the timeless stage. He is the mongrel, he wants it all, he lives for relics, hang on the wall.
Foxy, Foxy - Rob Zombie
16. Comme si je n'existais pas elle est passee a cote de moi, Sans un regard, reine de Saba, J'ai dit: Aicha, prends tout est pour toi
Aicha - Cheb Khaled
17. When I walk up in the piece, I ain’t gotta even speak, I’m a bad mamajama goddammit motherfucker you ain’t gotta like me
Gossip folks - Missy Elliot
18. You let me violate you, you let me desecrate you, Help me I broke apart my insides, help me I’ve got no soul to tell
Closer - Nine Inch Nails
19. I've been so many places, I've seen so many faces, but nothing compares to these blue and yellow purple hills
Purple Hills - D12
20. Hit it. Ohh baby baby. Ba' Baby baby. Ohh baby baby. Salt and Pepa's here. Salt and Pepa's here, and we're in effect, want you to push it, babe, coolin' by day then at night working up a sweat
Push it - Salt and Pepa
21. I hear the drums echoing tonight, But she hears only whispers of some quiet conversation, she’s coming in 12:30 flight, the moonlit wings reflect the stars that guide me towards salvation
Africa - Toto
22. She was more like a beauty queen from a movie scene, I said don't mind, but what do you mean I am the one
Billie Jean - Michael Jackson
23. I wanna know, the name of this song... Oooh Don't touch that, you don't know where it's been, don't touch wet paint, don't touch that dial, or rotten eggs, yuke don't touch that
Don't touch that - Weird Al Yankovic
24. My my, at waterloo napoleon did surrender, Oh yeah, and I have met my destiny in quite a similar way, the history book on the shelf, is always repeating itself
Waterloo - Abba
25. Look, if you had one shot, or one opportunity, to seize everything you ever wanted-One moment, would you capture it or just let it slip?
Lose Yourself - Eminem
26. Anytime I need you face, I just close my eyes and I am taken to a place where your crystal minds and magenta feelings take up shelter in the base of my spine
I want you - Savage Garden
27. Take out the papers and the trash, or you don't get no spending cash, if you don't scrub that kitchen floor, you aint gonna rock 'n roll no more
Yakkity Yak - The Coasters
28. It's just one of those days where you don't wanna wake up, everything is fucked, everybody suck, you don't really know why, but you wanna justify ripping someone's head off
Break stuff - Limp Bizkit
29. Inspiring, shining, rising, and when you're in my way, I'm not dividing me from you cause we're working together, perfect in its splendor like the currents of the weather
Time and Time again - Chronic Future
30. Another dream that will never come true, just to compliment your sorrow, Another life that I've taken from you, gift to add on to your pain and suffering
Prayer - Disturbed
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| Stolen from Bec |
[14 May 2006|11:03pm] |
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Step 1: Put your music player on random.
Step 2: Post the first line from the first 30 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song
Step 3: Post and let everyone you know guess what song and artist the lines come from.
Step 4: Strike out the songs when someone guesses correctly.
Step 5: Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is CHEATING!
1. I'm nothing special... in fact, I'm a bit of a bore... If I tell a joke, you've probably heard it before
2. Here in my car, I feel safest of all, I can lock all my doors, it's the only way to live in cars
3. Collipark Bubba Sparxxx BOOTY BOOTY BOOTY BOOTY rocking everywhere
4. I'm becoming less defined as days go by, fading away, and well you might say I'm losing the focus
5. Korekara minnade mechakucha odotte sawagou sawagou... Headbanga, Hit me, hit me
6. I have but one heart, this heart I bring you, I have but one heart, to share with you
7. Dear I fear we're facing a problem, you love me no longer I know and maybe there is nothing that I can do to make you do
8. To the beat of my, to the beat of my, to the beat of my heart
9. *sigh* We both lie silently still in the dead of the night, although we both lie close together we feel miles apart inside
10. I won't suffer, be broken, get tired, or wasted surrender to nothing, I'll give up what I started
11. I pretend that I'm glad you went away, these 4 walls closin' more everyday, and I'm dying inside, and nobody knows it but me
12. I can feel it coming in the air tonight, oh lord, and I've been waiting for this moment for all of my life, oh lord
13. On the good ship lollipop, it's a sweet trip to the candy shop, where bon bons play on the sunny beach of peppermint bay
14. I like beer cause it is good, I drink beer because I should, if there was a song to sing, I sing it and beer you bring
15. He who gets slapped and he who gets saved, he who brutalizes the timeless stage. He is the mongrel, he wants it all, he lives for relics, hang on the wall.
16. Comme si je n'existais pas elle est passee a cote de moi, Sans un regard, reine de Saba, J'ai dit: Aicha, prends tout est pour toi
17. When I walk up in the piece, I ain’t gotta even speak, I’m a bad mamajama goddammit motherfucker you ain’t gotta like me
18. You let me violate you, you let me desecrate you, Help me I broke apart my insides, help me I’ve got no soul to tell
19. I've been so many places, I've seen so many faces, but nothing compares to these blue and yellow purple hills
20. Hit it. Ohh baby baby. Ba' Baby baby. Ohh baby baby. Salt and Pepa's here. Salt and Pepa's here, and we're in effect, want you to push it, babe, coolin' by day then at night working up a sweat
21. I hear the drums echoing tonight, But she hears only whispers of some quiet conversation, she’s coming in 12:30 flight, the moonlit wings reflect the stars that guide me towards salvation
22. She was more like a beauty queen from a movie scene, I said don't mind, but what do you mean I am the one
23. I wanna know, the name of this song... Oooh Don't touch that, you don't know where it's been, don't touch wet paint, don't touch that dial, or rotten eggs, yuke don't tough that
24. My my, at waterloo napoleon did surrender, Oh yeah, and I have met my destiny in quite a similar way, the history book on the shelf, is always repeating itself
25. Look, if you had one shot, or one opportunity, to seize everything you ever wanted-One moment, would you capture it or just let it slip?
26. Anytime I need you face, I just close my eyes and I am taken to a place where your crystal minds and magenta feelings take up shelter in the base of my spine
27. Take out the papers and the trash, or you don't get no spending cash, if you don't scrub that kitchen floor, you aint gonna rock 'n roll no more
28. It's just one of those days where you don't wanna wake up, everything is fucked, everybody suck, you don't really know why, but you wanna justify ripping someone's head off
29. Inspiring, shining, rising, and when you're in my way, I'm not dividing me from you cause we're working together, perfect in its splendor like the currents of the weather
30. Another dream that will never come true, just to compliment your sorrow, Another life that I've taken from you, gift to add on to your pain and suffering
My list is odd. As you all know I am. Don't be surprised if you don't know some. If no one guesses some of them, ask, and i'll tell. There'll probably be some on here that I'll be really surprised of you know. Haha. Have fun!
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| Stolen from Beckers <3 |
[14 May 2006|08:12pm] |
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Timon Luau <3<3 |
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Using the candybar doll maker, make a doll of me from what you remember of my looks, or how YOU picture me, and post it here in the comments. Once you've posted here, ask the same in your own journal and see what your friends think you look like!
http://elouai.com/doll-makers/new-dollmaker.php
There's a button on the left hand side under the image you make that generates the html code so you can copy and paste it here. :)
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Today the world pissed me off.
At times I have NO patience.
Why must people be so stupid?
Only a few people that I talked to didn't piss me off.
Chris, Krystal, Rachel (amazingly. But we didn't talk much, so it was alright), and Mom.
I think that's it.
Amanda pissed me the HELL off. I yelled at her because she was being stupid.
I don't know what I'm doing tonight.
Krystal might come over.
But mom hasn't decided yet.
I still have 2 hours.
That should be fine. *nods*
Went shopping with Mom today. Got 2 new shirts. And this new shelf thing for my bathroom. -.-;
And flowers.
Another thing that pissed me off. I got this new mirror. So I can see my entire body. And not have to go to the bathroom. It was nice and white and small for my room.
Of course, I'm taking the stuff out of the bed of the truck and I was delicate with all of the Petunias and the shelf thing.
But I put the mirror against the gararge. And with MY FUCKING LUCK a BIG ass gust of wind comes and just knocks it over.
And it breaks.
I almost cried.
Mom kinda got pissed when I told her.
Today just doesn't seem to be my day.
When I woke up this morning, I had the urge to clean my room. And I tidied it a bit. I made my bed. Which I usually don't do. Because.. well... I don't feel like it.
I need a laundry basket. Badly. I'm tired of my clothes disappearing. I can't find ANYTHING. I saw Rachel wearing one of my shirts the other day... I was like "Rachel... Why're you wearing my shirt?" Her reply: "Because it was in my room."
Why're all of my clothes going everywhere but where they NEED to go?!? -.-;;;;
I'm about ready to do my own clothes.
PLUS!!! No one can mess my clothes and ruin them. I have had a couple shirts torn up by dogs.. or.. bleached. :(
Now I think I'll just download some music and clean the rest of my room. And do 50 million loads of laundry.
Oh. By the way. My bracelet count is at 64 right now. 54 of my left hand, 10 on my right.
Hurray.
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| From Becca. This is funny. XD |
[05 Apr 2006|07:39pm] |
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1) Being gay is not natural. Real Americans always reject unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, liposuction and air conditioning.
2) Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay, in the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.
3) Legalising gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior. People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage contract.
4) Straight marriage has been around a long time and hasn't changed at all; women are still property, blacks still can't marry whites, and divorce is still illegal.
5) Straight marriage will be less meaningful if gay marriage were allowed; the sanctity of Britney Spears's 55-hour just-for-fun marriage would be destroyed.
6) Straight marriages are valid because they produce children. Gay couples, infertile couples, and old people shouldn't be allowed to marry because our orphanages aren't full yet, and the world needs more children.
7) Obviously gay parents will raise gay children, since straight parents only raise straight children.
8) Gay marriage is not supported by religion. In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed on the entire country. That's why we have only one religion in America.
9) Children can never succeed without a male and a female role model at home. That's why we as a society expressly forbid single parents to raise children.
10) Gay marriage will change the foundation of society; we could never adapt to new social norms. Just like we haven't adapted to cars, the service-sector economy, or longer life spans...
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Re-post this if you believe in legalising gay marriage.
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